hey people :) you know wat, i'm really really sad. noone here to comfort me right now :( i really damn damn sad, i need someone so freaking badly. the worst part is, all my SISTERS is watching BATMAN now without me :( they know i so sad also never msg me, only know how to watch movie. i know la i didn't msg them. but ..... haih. i donno le. can someone come comfort me ? coz i really need someone so so badly now. n i miss my baby. damn saddenning. i miss you so much. you're my everything la. omg -__- but i know, you don love me nomore. your feeling towards me has really change, you really don love me as much as you do anymore, you don sayang me like how you always do, talk to me, manja me, pujuk me etc etc. now, you're all just being cold, i don blame you, i'm just a lousy person:) but seriosuly, i've never play with ur feelings b4, i really give you the best tat i can ever give, just to put up a bright smile on ur face every single day. as you always say, it's not worth crying for you, but i tell you, it's worth every single second being with you. you're the one n only tat can brighten up my darkess moment:) i miss you so so much. noone can ever replace you from my heart<3>

you're all i wan, you're all i need, you're everything <3

yup, i'm back to the shit hole once again. i just got home yesterday. and yup, life here is as boring as usual. i cant walk properly now cos i just did KETUK KETAMPI for a 100times few days ago and now my leg and ass is killing me. i even have problem wearing my pants now :) lol. but it's worth going through all those pain to finally get to talk back to someone :) anyways, back to the topic, i miss everyone in kl. especially mandy, su, abby n sarny lar. those sluts is part of me. i really cant live without them. but the one i miss most is my little sweet potato. hahaa. and horny too :)
i really hope i can go back soon. so i can get to see you again. i miss hugging you. and i miss ur smell. LOL. and i really miss everything we've all been through. anyways, hope to see everyone soon. mwakz<3>

Happy Birthday to ME


i'm finally 18. I had a really great birthday surprise from all my mandy, su , abby, sarny pin n all :) it was seriously great. it's the first time in my life someone actually gave me a surprice party. though it held in Mc'd, but i really do appreciate it. and now, i'm actually alone in the cyber cafe at 7 something on my birthday. i think i've a curse. LOL. but i'm usedd to it. and i've lost someone really important to me today, on my birthday itself. haih. said i always said, birthday sucks:) well i'm used to it. thankz everyone:) loves.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, PAO YU :)

yau suen, what you say was right. they don care bout us. we're not what they want all this while. i'll be back soon yau suen. hold on and wait till i'm back there. so we can continue our great plan.
hope you're alright now. and seems like the girls is having lots of fun without us around them. yauuu sueeennnnnn...


:(

i totally screw my sejarah and maths paper -_____- arghh.

anyways, yeah. just wanna know i really love you, i really know how would you feel right now. just hope you wont think that i'm bullshitting and all. and the most important thing is i'm not having something on with someone or something lar. i really do love you though. i've never played with ur feelings b4. anywayz, i can't wait to see you. love you. mwahzx <3 December is the time that i'll only get to see you and spend all my time with you. cant wait cant wait..




* it wasn't meant to be like this, we were never meant to fail.

Today is the first time you've scream at me like that. sorry for making you mad all the time. guess you're not gonna call me back. i'll be waiting for your call.



:'(

'Cessmandy








it has been ages since i talk to you and see ya. today finally you get to come online. i'm really happy that i get to see you and talk to you. been missing you tonnes, and everyone in kl lar. really hope spm ends asap, so i'll get to go back to kl. sej paper today really sucks. i think i'm gonna freaking fail lar. pftsss. anywayz, miss you ppl lar. mwakzx <3


*i really miss you hair in my face, and the way your innocence taste.

my feelings for you now is so darn deep, i never had this kinda feeling for anyone else bofore, maybe there's something about you that attracts me. i dont know whether you know i like you and all or not, probably you would think that i'm just playing with your feelings and all, but i really do love you. i know you've done a lot, A LOT of BAD mistake, but i'll keep on forgiving you. though my heart really ache damn badly when you do all those things, but it's okay. cause i really love you till i can't afford to lose you, i can't live without you. i want to be with you always. all this while you've been hiding stuff from me and all, lying to me and crap, is it that hard to just tell me the truth? i just want to know about the truth. dont hide stuff from me, dont keep on lying to me anymore. i've told you, as long as you tell me the truth, i'll never get mad at you, maybe i will, a little, though i'll be sad and all, but i'm glad that you did come and confront to me and tell me what's going on. i'll never ever do something to hurt your feelings. i'll never cheat on you, i'll never lie, i'll never disobey your orders, i just want to be with you forever. no matter what you did wrong in your past, i'll always forgive you, no matter what you've lie to me last time i'll also always forgive you. but please just know your limits from now onward, what ever you had promise me, please keep the promises okay. i really love you. i really do. i'm missing you tonnes, i misses your touch, lips, smell and all. hope you'll feel the same way too.





keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through.

it seems like you need me no more. hope you're happy off this way.
you'll be fine without me.


you're on my heart just like a tattoo. <3

i'm feeling kinda sad know. i don even know why. emo-ing for some freaking reason. anywayz i don even know why i'm blogging now. i'm just gonna continue listening to my music.





i miss you.



you're all i want, you're all i need, you're everything <3

Dear lie
You suck
You said you could
fix anything
Instead I'm fucked
You made things
even worse for me
If I had balls I'd
tell you get away
from me
Guess I'm not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth
would hurt me
When it's you that
hurts me more

Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin'
words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
You're dumb
You think you've got
the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your walls
Now get the hell
away from me
I've learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin'
words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Lie lie
I've got
Your walls
Now get the hell
away from me
I learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Wont' let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more


Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin'
words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Lie lie
Dear lie
Lie Lie Lie Lie
Lie Lie
Dear lie

zoomggg, i just notice that my mum just renovated the house:s

*faints*

i'm finally back to the shit hole after staying at 2 to 3 months stayin in kl. i can't believe i even left weiih. it's damn saddening. so many ppl cried. *sniff sniff* anyways, it has been real fun hanging around, it has always been fun, tho me and my frens keep doing the same old thing day by day, but yeah. i went to summer splash, it was fun. got to go with all my frens and 'family':] den went UV nation. met damn lotsa people there. went over to yahoo with my frens parents for the first time tho. it was really fun tho over there is all uncle and anuty. hahah. went drinking alot. been bummbing around. play lotsa fooscaball and mahjong. AND I DIDN"T EVEB GET TO MEET UP WITH CRYSTAL CHONG-.- went to sheer 2007. it was real great, dynamites won:] had a nite off at genting too. it was soooo funn czo everyone is there. we drank like no body's business. i've been staying with everyone. and yeah, i stay with one of my fren for like 1month plus. she charge me like hell

used of bed = 20
towel = 5
laundry = 20
used of her car = 10
water = 50
electric = 20
body bath =30
shampoo = 50
phone bill = 20
pillow = 5
bedsheets =10
perfume = 20
toothpaste = 15
comp = 10
ciggiez = 10
comb = 5
her dad's slippers tat i borrowed for like 3 hours-.- = 5
toilet rool = 5

and lots more. :]

i'm too lazyy to blog bout everythin and up loading pics, i'll just continue wen i feel like it.
anyways, missing you ppl out there. take carez. mwakzx<3

btw, i finally got my carr:]

DONT MIND BOUT THIS POSTT... I'M JUST TALKING BOUT SOEMONE REAL RANDOM.. IT'S UNDER YOUR EXPECTATION ...



whyy, whyyyy?? why do you have to hide stuff from me.? why can't you just tell me straight to my face? is it so darn hard?? it's better for you to tell me den i found it out by myself. i can't explain how i feel bout you now. i can't even explain why coz there's no explanation for it.. i do like you, but i don even know whether do i really love you. maybe it's coz i HAven't forget bout our past or wat so ever you have done or lie to me. or maybe i've love someone more than you . i noe i've been kinda mean to you sometimes, but how bout you? i just wish tat u're happy. i don don wan you to keep hiding stuff from me, i wan you to confront me and tell me everythin like how you always did last time, you would just tell me every single shit. once i had your love, and i flaunt it. i didn't really appreciate it. i've regret bout wat i've done last time, but's it's too late to realise it now. anyways, i've been in kl for 4 weeks ed, and i still haven't even return to the SHIT HOLE. i've been staying with all my lovely frens tat willingly to let me stay with them. i've been bothering every single one of them. i've been eating alot of mcd's lately. actually it's like 4weeks straight. i've been to summer splash and UVnation. i had tonnes of fun there with all my frens. i went to cheer 2007 too. meet up with tonned of people there.

anyways. straight to the point, i hope i can get a glimpse of how you're feeling. when ever you need someone, i'm just a call away from you. i think you need some space to think bout wat you actually want. hope you don't hide anymore stuff from me and lie to me anymore-.- and hope u're doing great now. anyways, i'm missing you tonnes hunn. mwakxzz, lovess<3>



OHHH, AND CRYSTAL WILL BE BACK IN LIKE FEW HOURS TIME:] YAYY, CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HER..

a shot of broken heart that is chase with fear.

no matter what i have to do, i'll wait for you<3>

rhema ask me to blog, so yeah, i decided to blog den:] slept till 4 in the afternoon today. woke up, came online, chit chat, ladiidaa, den suddenly i got tis phone call, i've been told tat hong n lian got ROBBED yesterdayy nite at bu7. the stupid freaking guard saw wat happen also don wanna help-.- lian's like having like a trauma now, due to wat happen yesterday. i hope she's okayy now. both of them lost everythin, even hongs carr weiih. CARRR. haih. stupid indians fuckerrr..!!! oh well.. den after tat, chit chat again, went for diinner with mummy:] came back home, played the impossible game thingy, and the zombie game, omg i DIE LIKE HELL WEIIH..!! oh well, i'm just gonna stuck to my SOLITAIRE:] i'm damn good in it:] i'll never diee:] heheh


note for NICC n RHEMAA : FIIIIIIIISSHHBAAL.. LMAOOO.

ahahahahhahahahaha:]

oh oh, and nicc, wen you need me next time, just call or text me or wat so ever larr:] i'll be right there in a blink of an eye:] heheheh

sorryy bout the random post, i was ask to blog, so yeahhh..
i wonder wat happen to my MAM weiih, she's full of randomness today, started of bout she wanan meet a GHOST, n them she wanna be a teacher:s i think it's because we've been talking bout "HIM" to much, tat's y she's going all crazyy noww. oh well, i'm gonna continue solitaire-ING n stonnnneee-.-


and wait, now she say she wanna start CRYINGGG:s


<3 baiii..

finally i'm back to the shit hole after one whole month of bumming around, meeting up with love ones, b'day parties, working for ck for fun, genting, mardigras, karaoke, clubbing, dancing, double daring each others, n tonnes more. i'm gonna keep it sort coz i'm real tired to blog bout freaking 30 days weiih. wen i reach KL, the 1st person i saw was PIN PIN, he came to pick me up in the lrt station, took a cab headed to ou n fooos:] after tat, me, mandy, yausuen, peggy, ck, joyce, ken, yvonne, set lian n chun hong headed to GENTING to celebrate yau suen's b'day, we bought a choc banana cake for her. we had lotsa fun day nite tho:]


the familyy:]


the black gang.


the white gang.


brothers:]


sisters:]


everyone was like one pair one pair, me n mandy was like single for the nite. oh well, let the pic do the talking larrr:]



1st couple: yau suen n peggy<3


2nd couple: ck n joyce<3


3rd couple: susu n charles<3


4th couple: chun hong n set lian<3


me: single for the nite-.-


mandy: single for the nite tooo-.-

after tat we headed to some karaoke place in genting hotel ther, the food arrive n sutff, they had the best chicken wing ever weiih. not kidding.


siu kai yek.


fries.


random piccs:]


the bufday cake:]


susu curi makan.


i donno wtf we're doin, but yeahh.


lol.


lmao.


rofl.



rhema's b'day surprise at royal bintang:]

me n nana took like god noes how long to take to plan tis thinggy, but some ppl seems to hates it much, but oh well, who cares bout them lar. me, nana, rhema, wan ru, jlo, melvin, ronald had tonnes to joy n laughter.


1st jian hao blindfolded rhema all the way from cineleisure to royal bintang.


the bomb weiih:]


jian hao n rhemaaaaa


i don noe who took tis picc weiih:s


me n lynnn:]


everyone enjoying the pizzaa.


LOL.


jian hao n nana:]


nana, tall freak, rhemaa:]


around 1something everyone left, only left me, nana, rhema n wan ru only. den after tat we tried opening the 21 yeas old chivas bottle n the v.s.o.p but half way openingn the cork broke in to half. so we have to call the bartender from royal bintang hotel to help us open it up:] after 20minutes, he manage to open it, but there's still some cork in the drink tho, who care. an hour later, jlo, melvin n ronald came over to drink:] our mission is to get RHEMA TIFFANY drunk:]


nana just like to take a pic of me without me noticing


melvin n ronald concentrating on the fruit game:]


cards


5 minutes after started drinking, rhema was still okay okayy


10 minutes later she like cannot stand it anymore.


15minutes later. GG. ahhaha


in the end, everyone was kinda drunk..:]

i slept around 5 something, nana, jlo, wan ru n melvin went for breakfast. everyone woke up around 11 something, wash up, pack over stuff, n headed home. the room was freaking messy. kesian all those cleaner there weihh. lol.


cant stop thinking of you..


oh yeahh, n i did work at juice works for around like 2dat i think:s coz i was sooo freaking bored, so i decided to work for ck for FOC:] it's kinda tiring working there tho, but its real fun:] i got learn how to cut all kinds of fruits. susu even come n work with us for FOC to:] among all fruits, the hardest was cutting tat stupid pineapple weihh. i hate cutting it so much. pftss. i love the body builder from juice works, it's the bomb weiih:] even su also likes it, actually everyone likes it larr:] the worst part working at juice works is the time wen you need to wash the stupid longkong aka dunjent(i donno how to speel lar) weih. omgness, the smell of it is like hell weih. yerr.. i almost faint wen i smell the smell coming out from there.




ck cut the left pineapple n i cut the one on the right. look how ugly is mine weiih..-.-


i went over to ming wei's party also, i went to his house early to help him out packing all those stuff. he pick me up from rhema's house tho. den after tat me n him went ou to get some stuff, he meet up with his fren's so i went over to osc to meet up with the usual ppl:] hong n set lian had some argument so i ask to follow me over to the party for awhile coz i don wan her to be all alone in ou. so yeahh. we took a cab there. i get to meet all the long lost frens. everyone as there. everyone single one of them. i got so many hugs on tat da, some of them i don even noe them but they noe me:s how weird. den after tat i wen talk talk with some gurls, smoke few sticks, den headed back to osc again. foos n foos, played king stayed, me n su was like owning all the guys asses:] i've been sleeping around in kl. i've slept in rhema's house, su's, ck's, cosmo's, royal bintang:], mandy's n siang ming's house. i've been kick down the bed from ck, su stuff some chicken to my face n jump around n scream to wake me up, sleeping with the light on whole nite, been bitten by su's dog for like a thousand times while i was sleeping-.-. i've meet up with everyone so far, hope i didn't left anyone out:s i still remember there was once me, abby, mandy n susu was headed to diva in ou, suddenly we bum into ys n peggy, den suddenly, den mich n her neighbors n jean n gang, wat a small world ey, everyone was like in diva:] AND FINALLY I GET TO EAT MY BBQ PLLAZA. went with su, mandy, and abby:] anyways, i've been hanging at mcd's center point alot, specially with abby n mandy. we've been talking bout lotsa crap, we tried stealing siang ming's car without him noticing, but planned failed coz he say abby driving he car waving to meee. we're been talking alot bout "GOBLIN'S SON". i donno tat's he's tat scary. me, abby, mandy n ming made up tis real funny story, i'll blog bout it one day if i feel like it larr. anyways, ming has a real nice ass, lmao.

oh yeahh, n i've been through the most embarrassing moment in my whole fucking life, i ask a guy, A GUY from his signature-.- everyone in osc saw me asking tat guy for his signature, n everyone starting asking me was i okay or something, m i sick, did someone brainwash me or something, ladiidaaa. i got it for my fren btw, coz she really think tis guy is hot, so yeahh:] after wen i got his signature, i called my fren to come over to osc, i gave her the signature tat was sign on a resit, she almost like had a heart attack weiih:] she was like on her knees the whole time n cant stop saying thank you n hugging me:] oh well, s long s she's happy:] i'll do anything for you guys out there just to put up a smile on ur face:]


anways, i'm real tired now, haven't been sleeping for 2days coz we're like stoning at mcd's the whole time n ming's house too. i'll never ever forget wat happen in the whole month wen i'm in kl. miss you guys all weiih. but actually the one is miss the most is YOU. i hope YOU noe tat, i'll always wait for YOU no matter wat:]



it's just you and me:]

school was kinda fucked up todayy. my whole freaking class made my class teacher cry weiih. it was damn scary the moment wen she starts tearing. the whole class was like *sileent*. some more she's like sick. she can't get pist ot emo n stuff, of not she'll faint coz he has tis heart sickness. so yeah. we felt damn bad weiih.. school ends at 12, parent came n pick me up, den suddenly wen i'm in the car, my mummy passed me tis letter. ahah. lol. surprise surprise, i got a letter from KL weiih.. from someone:] ahhaha. yupyup. went lunch, came home, bath.. chit chat with rhema, nana, nic, crys, jakie ladiidaa.. n tat stupid VIC in a stupid $#@$#@ CUNT weiih.. argghh. oh well, cbb bout him ed larr.. die die larr. lol.
n omg larr.. till now i'm still like playing solitaire. i'm damn lifeless weiih.. lol.





nana. rhema. nicc

P.S: I MISS YOU GUYS so badly larr.. i'm happy tat i have 3of thesee real lovellyy babee:]

i get to skip todayy. woke up at 10somethin, den mummy drag me out to settle some stuff bout my car. my god, have to wait for at least a month only we can get the car weiih. damn long. but i cbb also larrr. so yeah. after tat went to the mall coz mummy wanted to shop. she bought like hell lotsa stuff. she bought like 5tops n 3pants i think. my daddy got undies n i only got a traveling bag n a box of HONEYSTART.. how saddening weiih. i was looking for my moneyclip coz i wanted one since ages, but tis shit hole doesn't sell them.-__- HOW CAN THEY NOT SELL MONEYCLIP WEIIH... the saleswomen say that only have it in KL-__-" rite..! stupid shit hole. me n my dad was like so pist of at my mum. coz we're like waiting for her n stuff, n she's like taking her own sweet farking time. so yeah, me n my daddy went yamcha at some weird place. it look so empty wen we went in.. it's totally EMPTY weiih. we're like the only customer. btw. it's called NOONE cafe tho. lol.. wat a name weiih. no wonder no one goes there. yupyup, few hours later, finally mummy is done with her shopping, headed home, come online. stonee.. drove out to bought ciggies, came back, chat for awhile, stone again, oh yeah, n i played SOLITAIRE:] i noe it's saddening. oh well. 13 MORE DAYSS till rhema's darling b'day:].. CAN'T WAIT.. 2MORE WEEKS I'LL BE BACK TO KL:] YAY.. ladiidaaaa

p.s: i miss you guys larr..:]

yayy:]
finally exams over.. sat for 4papers to day.. everyone was jumping around like a freaking monkey wen the last paper ends. oh, n yeahh.. a gurl came up to me n ask me out for dinner tis saturday nite, i was like.. errmm.. hmm.. *stone*-_- i barely even noe her.. *randomness*.. freaking weird shit hole people... come home after school, bath den went to take a nap, woke up, plaed SOLITAIRE again-_- had dinner, den tuition. omg, it was like so freaking boring. an our later i can't stand it. i think she can see through my face, so yeah, she brought me yam cha. came home, chat with rhema darling, baby nicc n my LIL BROTHER.. lmfao (p.s: edwin, NO SUCH THING AS FRENS WITH BENEFITS OKAYY.. lol..) you noe wat i'm talking bout edwin-_- mehh, so tired larr. gonna Zzzz now.. buhhbaii..


p.s:yes i noe edwin, frens with benefits do exist-_-

i'm missing ya lots hunn.<3