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31 march 2007..omg.. mum woke me up around 8:30am to help her pluck grass at the backyard. gooodness, i couldn't even bother n went back to sleep. woke up around 10somethin, den teman mummy to the near by mall to get some stuff. suddenly around 10:45. SOON HOE n frens called me, they were in the hospital. they call me to inform me that VICTOR CHAI had into an accident last nite, he was with 5of his other frens in the car, so all togather 6of them. the driver name called SIMON somethin, he was driving at the spped of 180, suddenly out of no where, tis little stupid kancil pop out from no where, the SIMON guy tried to avoid. that's wen he lose control of the car, the breaks didn't help, the car spin around n overturn. VICTOR was the unlucky one coz he was sitting in the middle of the backseat. after SOON HOE tell me bout all these, i tot it was like a APRIL FOOL joke or somethin. i keep asking him to cut it of n don fool around with me bout tis kinda thing. but he say it's all true. he sounded real serious, he ask me to call SU, MANDY n gang if i don believe. after den, i receive calls from su, peggy n gang.. it's the truth.. everyone was crying so badly in the hospital. every single one of them was there except for me coz i'm freaking stuck in tis SHIT HOLE. 12:31, i got a call from a fren in the hospital, he told me that VICTOR just pass away. i can hear everyone in the background was screaming n crying hoping that VICTOR will come back to life. i can't stop tearing, i was begging my mum to let me go back KL, but can't coz my mum is gonna b home alone coz my dad went somewhere n he'll only b back on tuesday. i really wish VICTOR didn't die.. i really miss you VICTOR, everyone LOVE you. you can't ust leave us just like that. YOU ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEART<3
we love you vicctorrr<3WE ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU<3VITOR CHAI [31/3/2007]
I'veeee.............
-smoke a cigarette
-smoke a cigar
-done drugs
-kiss a girl
-kiss a guy
-drank alcohol
-been in love
-been dump
-been shoplifted
-been an a fist fight
-been snuck out of a parent's house
-had feeling for someone who didn't have them back
-made out with a stranger
-had a crush on an older person
-lied
-carry someone
-skipped school
-seen someone/ something die
-been on a plane
-thrown up from drinking
-eaten sushi
-taken pain killers
-love/like someone right now
-laid on my back n watched cloud shapes go by
-had a tea party
-flown a kite
-built a sand castle
-gone puddle jumping
-played dress up
-jumped into a pile of leaves
-cheated while playing a game
-been lonely
-fallen asleep at school/work
-use a fake/someone else's ID
-watched a sun set
-been tickled
-been robbed/vandalized
-been misunderstood
-won a contest
-been suspended from school
-been in a car/motorcycle accident
-eaten a whole pin of ice cream in one night
-had deja vu
-danced in the moonlight
-hate the way i look
-witnessed a crime
-questioned my heart
-squished barefoot through the mud
-been lost
-swam in the ocean
-felt like i was dying
-cried myself to sleep
-played cops and robbers
-sang karaoke
-pay a meal with coins only
-done something tat i told myself tat i wouldn't
-made prank phone calls
-kissed the rain
-watch the sun set with someone i care/cared bout
-blown bubbles
-made a bonfire on the beach
-crashed a party
-gone roller skating/blading
-had a wish come true
-got my tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cubes
-kissed a fish
-worn a opposite sex clothes
-sat on a rooftop
-screamed at the top of my lungs
-talk on the phone more den 3hours
-stay up all night
-climb a tree
-been in a tree house
WAT a bring day in school todayy weiih.. almost die of boredomm. at least i get to ponteng marching, or not i'll die under the freaking HOTT sun.. pftss... and why is everyone emooING.. oh wells, mayb emoNESS has hit everyone tis month.. even i'm emoING noww.. anywayy, hope rhemaaa will get well soonn. i don wan her to get all sickk again wen i'm backk.. i miss you guyss.. everyone. mwahzxzx<3
stupid stupid stupid elviNNn....
Pftss.. don fucking remind bout it elvin.. fu*K, Knn, CbK $!#$@@@$#@$#@....... i just over it n you brought it back up, and stop fucking playing CS. oh wells.:].. ptfsss.. i'm still feeling emptyy larr.. oh wellz, hopefullyy i'll feel better soon. i really miss you real badly boo<3.>
Silent tearsfalling to the ground, They seem to belong to me.An empty shell standing in the rain, Wishing you'd come back to me.Sleepless nights tossing and turning,Haunted by the ghost of you.Will this pain ever go away, The pain of losing you......
-you're my one and only-
I'll Be The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive -- not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said.
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
The greatest fan of your life....
Greatest fan of your life.
hmmm.....
damnn hott weii.. i'm like dying ere riteee nowww...
and omggg.. i just found out that my ex school pengetauu(puan NORSHAM) has frenster weiihh.. n hann's havingg a wett dreamm bout vic. how gay.. boys.. ladiidaaaaa..
I was late to school todayy, pftss. den there's tis stupid BIATCHH teacher just suddenly scream my name out of no where during the perhimpunan, i was like WTF*stone*.. the stupid teacher cought me coz of my nailz. Haihh, i'm force to cut my precious nails. anywayz, i head back to class after that. There's like no teacher coming in to my class for the whole day, YAyy.. Me n a bunch of my frens just sit at the end of the class the whole time talking bout craps and bulls.. Then after that we start talking bout our love ones, frens, yadayadayadaa.. omg, one of my class mate's boyfren pass away on the 9 of march coz of an accident, some fella bang him with a car i think? My fren have been crying like crazzyy after since her boyfren pass awayy.. We were all trying to comfort her n making her stop crying. After that, my stupid class monitor which is a guy, i don even know when and how did he managed to saw my boxers that i was wearing todayy, he keep convincing me to give him my boxerr. Lmao. i know it's cutee, But it's mine, so too badd. But i promise him that i'll get a new one for him during his birthday tho:] Came home, stonee for awhile, then i did my moral project, 4folio, and 8pages of essay and i've to do my english assigment wish is like 20 pages longg. CRAZYYness. anyways got to go off now..<3
LaaDiiiiiDaaa....
oh wellzz.. i don even know why i start a blog anywayz, mayb i just can spit out all the shit that i feel in my life. anywayz, my life is pretty sad, I use to stay in KL, but my family hace shifted me to a SHIT HOLE(lalaland), fren's n loves one is in KL, n my lil baby is in overseaa.. yeah, i know life is pretty fark up, but oh well, look in the brightside people.:] ladiidaaa.. got to go noww, mum's making lotsa noices. buhbuiii..!!
Why is it over.?why should it be over.. it can never be over yet. i haven't get to show u how much i do love you.why can't you just give it another try but just given up just like that. you wouldn't know how much u mean to me. I'm willing to do anything for you. you're the exception I'm willing to make.. I love YOU n only YOU. Hope you know that..<3
-It's not over-
My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me? And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed.And there is no sense in playing games, when you done all you can do. But now it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over, It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it's over. I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right.I cry, I cry. I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away the life that I led. But I won't let it die. But I won't let it die. But it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over, It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back. I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever.You're breaking my, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together.We could be over and over, we could be forever. I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever.You're breaking my, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together.We could be over and over, we could be forever. It's not over. It's not over, it's never over, unless you let it take you, it's not over, It's not over, it's not over, unless you it break you. It's not over.
